I can make it through the rain. I can stand up once again on my own and i know that i'm strong enough to mend. I live one more day and i can make it through the rain.
She believed it was a red light. She didn't want to accept it. She still needed to show more things to him. She didn't wanna give up first. She still needed to tell him that she liked him. She cried all day. She worried about him like crazy. That day, she turned on the tv and she saw a news about an airplane from where he was, crashing down. She almost faint. She held back and reached her phone, texting him. Couldn't believe anything she saw. Fortunately, it wasn't his flight which crashed down. She worried. If worrying could make her lose weight then she would be super thin cause worrying too much. She cried. He knew that she was shocked. He knew that she scared of losing him. He knew that she was worried. She showed him all. But he replied, "I'm okay". That's it. When she read her message, she couldn't help but feeling relieved and grateful. In the end, she comforted herself from that shocking news all alone. Another one, he sent her his picture of what he was doing that time. She happily seen it and sent a reply. She waited for his reply by checking her phone every second but........yup no reply but he had seen it. She was stupid.
She was gonna stop? She needed to stop? She had to stop?....................question marks.
Sometimes letting go then holding onto nothing is so much better. She didn't know.......if this was the right time for her to let go or not. She just wanted to like him. She just wanted him to feel loved. She didn't want him to feel empty and heartless. Feel loved was the best feelings.....for me. So she wanted him to know and to feel that feeling too. Maybe it's true. It's easy to love but it's not easy to be loved.
All she ever wanted was just staying beside him, support him, care about him.....love him silently. That simple. It's okay. She's fine.
There's a million reasons why she should give up but....
