64 ㅡ ♕ 피노키오

63 ㅡ ♕ If Only...

If only someone could see the smile in my face as beautiful as i thought it was, that would be great.

If only someone could see the sparks in my eyes cause i'm seriously sincere and care, that would be great.

If only someone could see how i fake my smile and care to ask why, that would be great.

If only someone could care more than i thought it would be, that would be great.

If only someone could feel comfortable with me, that would great.

If only i could make someone laugh and happy cause of simple thing; just because of my existence in life, that would be great.

If only i could make at least one person feel most alive and comfortable when i'm around that person, that would be great.

....if only.

62 ㅡ ♕ just nobody.

61 ㅡ ♕ 겁난다.

Being pushed. Even Ed Sheeran's friends have gone to find another place to let their hearts collide. Be strong, you deserve to be happy! 

60 ㅡ ♕ 몰라잉

바람이 분다.

새사랑이 온다.

뭐야 아냐.

난 오늘밤도 니가 떠 올려

니가 모르게.

*current expression*

59 ㅡ ♕ Ruby Genevieve

The Originals of Hwang Clan

There was once a warm human family in town. But then New Orleans would have one unique family for the first time in forever. The man and the woman loved each other so much so then they got married. The family got even bigger when they had their first daughter, Hayley Ruby Genevieve. They would live happily ever after, they thought. The mother was a witch. She wanted to keep their family forever with her and didn't one to lose one of them as she felt getting old one day. One strained of her gray hair made her seriously wanted to make the family immortal. She went too far. She went against the nature by doing black magic. She made potions with black magic and shouted out black magic spell. She turned her beloved husband and daughter into immortal vampires. The first one in town. The Originals of #HwangClan. She knew she went too far for that. All witches all around the world knew it and came to find her cause she had done something bad with the black magic and it was against the nature that changing people into something immortal was always forbidden. That wasn't the real problem of all. The father of Hayley found out a big secret about his wife. She betrayed her husband and had an affair with a man who already had a family. The thing was she made the same potion of immortality and turned the man into a vampire. Hayley's father found out about it and madly hunted his own wife. The mother of Hayley died in place. Hayley saw it with her own eyes, how her father killed her mother. Was it love from the start? Why? Love faded. She hated her father for doing that. They were happy before. The family was never betrayed each other. They always one. They loved each other. They didn't want to lose each other. But why. Hayley hated her family for hurting her inside feelings. Because of her mother's case, Hayley's father was at a mess. He locked Hayley inside the house and didn't let her to even know about how bright outside was. He was at a super mess. He was crazy. He always said that he wanted to keep Hayley forever with him since it was now just Hayley, the one he had in his lifetime. Hayley couldn't do anything, other than being a polite daughter and stayed at home all day. She never knew what was going on outside the house. She locked in her father's nest. One day, She got a nerve to betray her father and left home. She knew her father would be super mad. She would imagine how her father would chase her forever and it was the same like what he did to her mother. And in the end, Hayley would die in his father's hands of craziness. Fortunately, Hayley met witches in town. Hayley told them about the story which go on and on and on. They told her to make a White Oak Stake to kill her father. She was in hurry to make the stake from a white oak tree. But then she felt like she would be all alone in millions time if she killed her own father. Then she asked the witches again about how to make him stop but not to make him die. The witches then told her to prepare a coffin and a dagger. "Dagger him and lock him forever in his coffin!" They told her. She went home with a dagger inside her jacket. As she had imagined, her father was mad. But before her father said something, she quickly stabbed her father in the heart with a dagger coated in the ash of the white oak tree. Once stabbed with that dagger, The Original like her father desiccated and was sent into a death-like sleep until the dagger was removed. There Hayley had her own father in his coffin, sleeping soundly. Hayley left the house with her father's coffin burried under the warm house of them. "Good night, Papa!" Hayley locked the house and brought the key with her. The witches told her to stay at The Reign cause it would be safe for her and also for humans in New Orleans. Hayley left town and stepped into The Reign.

58 ㅡ ♕ norae.

Daybreak Rain

57 ㅡ ♕ 운명 처럼 널 사랑해

56 ㅡ ♕ 박여신

So here's my role model, Apink Park Chorong. I adore her ever since the first time i saw Apink but at that time Yoon Bomi also got me. My ultimate bias in Apink is Yoon Bomi but Park Chorong always be the cockblocker. Heol. I even follow her diet steps hhe! She's so much skinnier and super beautiful omg she's super flawless. She's the goddess!!!!! 여신이당!!!!!!! 어머나♡ 

55 ㅡ ♕ Love Book, 17.

So here I go,
Takin' the curve
But I know that I'm never alone
I think of you,
And how you never let me go.

 

 

Hellooooo! Today is a good day i could say hhe! idk what to post today cause nothing's good or bad. So then i come up with an idea to post what my sister gave me as a present for my sweet seventeen birthday last year on 2014. It's a scrapbook that made with full of love and i'm super grateful to have her as my sister.

Here's the lovely scrapbook!

Love book.

 

I love the girl here hhe! cute right?

smiles a lot.

Our precious moments together.

We called ourselves, "sisters forever."

she knows me well........well hey ken *blushes*

love them and........myself.

my ohana.

grateful for her.

we're like a twins.......

.........we are The Jung Sisters.

*inserts many many love there*

I feel connected
Protected
It's like you're standing right with me all the time

 

 

ATTENTION!

This is her back guise.

Wanna see her face?

One.

Two.

Three.

There.

TADA!

My fashionista sister is in da houz.

You hear me
You're near me
And everything else is gonna be alright

 

 

We fight a lot, 

cause we act like a stupid kid all the time.

But we spend some time to talk, 

letting our hearts speak.

And we end up hugging tight, 

cause love always lead us home.

 
Cause nothing can break this
Nothing can break this tie
Connected inside.

 

I know i'm annoying. I always hurt you with my words or actions. I'm so far far away from being a lady. I haven't gotten to be a mature sister even if i'm now 17. But trust me, i'm trying to be one. You never get bored to remind me which way to choose. You always stand by my side to help me from falling even if your sharp words that come out. I know you do that to help me be more mature everyday. You're such a friend, a mentor, a listener, a korean-buddy, a fight buddy, a lover, a family and i could proudly call you....my sister. Love you so much and I know words cannot describe how I feel about you....how I need you....how I care about you. Never get bored of reminding me and never get bored of me xoxo. Saranghae!

 a short letter for bigsis, 

Your annoying sister teehee!

 

Everytime that I breathe,
I can feel the energy
Reachin' out,
Flowin' through,
You to me and me to you
Wake or dream,
Walk or stand,
You are everywhere I am.
Seperate souls, unified
Touching at the speed of light.

In the name of sisters. 

Luvya!

54 ㅡ ♕ Ariel.

The friend hated vinegar for twice ears hurt,
He asked for medicine to heal the heart. 

That friend listened two ears not cupped,
She understood said to the heart stopped. 

He looked downside, tears following.
She remained silent, shoulders tapping. 

Friends are needed,
Reals are limited. 

She storytelling Ariel The Mermaid, showing movie captured.
She was the lady heart captured.

He opened page one two three, read probably the same as another Princess.
He checked pages, writing all the differences.

She hugged the book, feeling old.
She cheered herself, feeling bold.

He told the magic spell, he helped.
Her tail into feet body, witch helped.

She walked to the beach, Prince finding live.
He dug the stone, Princess leaving alive.

"Sometimes, just sometimes, you just need someone to talk to about things that other people hate to listen to. Just one person is enough. Just to let out all your feels."

"Memories are there to be burried but not to be forgotten."

"Follow your heart, do what you love and no regrets." 

Good luck!

everytime i try to fly, i fall without my wings.

53 ㅡ ♕ no exid.

Eyes closed, nudging arms.

They are so close, yet so far from what it seems.

Stealing eyes caught by him,

Eyesmiling only for him.

Don't know well his stealing eyes works,

Don't know him feel the same hearts.

People keeps an eye for them,

People smirks ticklish for them.

The girl pulls out the edge of her lips,

While the boy pulls out a fist.

- 파니 나타샤❤

52 ㅡ ♕ false alarm, false hope.

I’ve been crying for a long time

Again today, I'm longing for you

"It’s been hard for you, right?"

Those words, those words of comfort comes out when you look at me

I’ve been lost in your memories for a long time

But when I open my eyes, I only see your back

"Is this a dream? Am I still living the days when I used to face you?"

I just want you love me, will love come?

Tell me that you love me, if you feel the same way

I hope and hope and hope.....but I can’t have you

I know this but I look for you again.....like a fool

You won’t know even if I'm always smiling

How much my exhausted heart has cried

If I call out you and tell you, "I miss you thousands of times"

Will you think of me at least once?

I just want you love me, will love come?

Tell me that you love me, if you feel the same way

I hope and hope and hope.....but I can’t have you

I know this but I look for you again.....like a fool

If I desperately call out your name,

"Will we be able to meet like that day?" Full of laugh. Full of smile. Talking all day.

I can’t live without you, will you come?

Tell me that you love me, if you feel the same way

I hope and hope and hope.....but I can’t have you

I know this but I look for you again.....like a fool

#kimnayoung: hope and hope.

난 널 또 바라고 바라고 바래도 널 가질수 없단 걸

알면서도 너를 또 바보 같이 찾는다...

난 알아..정말 알아..넌 내 마음을 몰라. 넌 정말 몰라..

난 말했다. 난 괜찮아 넌 몰라서도 괜찮아 난.

"나만 널 좋아하니까" 난 계속 이 말은 듣고 있어...니가 생각할때...

"나만 니가 걱정했는데" 난 괜찮아 널 좋아하니까...

"나만 니가 보고싶어지면 괜찮아" 짝사랑, 내 마음이 너무 아프다.

51 ㅡ ♕ Runaway, Break The Chicken Soup's Bowl!

Aku ingin lari darimu,

Tapi bila kau tak datang dan menemukanku...

Aku akan mati.

- Shirley Bassey.

Dia adalah seorang pelari. Dia bukan pelari dalam pengertian biasanya. Dia lari dari cinta. Cinta membuatnya sangat ketakutan, dan tidak tahu mengapa. Ada sesuatu tentang perasaan yang sebegitu indah yang menimbulkan rasa takut pada dirinya yang tidak seperti hal lainnya. Mustahil merasakan yang indah tanpa mengetahui bahwa kita akhirnya akan terluka. Begitulah yang selalu ada di pikirannya selama ini.

Salah satu harapan tertingginya di dalam hidup adalah hidup dengan si dia yang istimewa. Orang yang membuat kita merasa betah karena berada bersamanya. Orang yang membuat hati kita mencair dengan penampilan yang biasa saja. Orang yang memahami bahwa dia adalah pelari, dan tetap menantikannya dengan sabar sampai dia lelah, dan menoleh ke wajah yang sudah pernah dia hadapi - bahwa cinta akan menjadi lebih kuat seiring waktu.

Dan dengan orang yang tepat, cinta bisa berkembang menjadi sesuatu yang melampaui impianmu yang paling tinggi. 

Dia akhirnya bertemu denganku. Aku memandangnya sebagai cinta dalam hidupku. Untuk sementara waktu, paling tidak. Maksudku, masih ada sedikit sisa keinginannya untuk berlari. Aku menyadari itu dan berulang kali aku memberinya ruang. Tak ada ikatan. Tak ada batasan. Ketika dia datang, aku menyambutnya, dan menyediakan hatiku untuk dia sandari. Aku memaafkan, tetapi tidak melupakan. Untuk itu aku tahu dia merasa bersyukur. Dia membutuhkan pengingat, meskipun aku kadang-kadang terlalu samar mengingatkan. Ketika dia mundur dan menatap mataku, yang mudah dilakukan ketika orang jatuh cinta, dia melihat nyeri yang diakibatkan oleh ulahnya. Itu sudah cukup untuk membuatnya lari selamanya, karena yang paling tidak diinginkannya adalah membuat orang lain terluka. Terutama menyakiti seseorang yang mungkin begitu dia cintai. Tapi bila dia lari dariku dengan niat tak pernah kembali, dia pernah mencobanya sekali, kami berdua hanya menjadi pecundang.

Begitulah kami belajar sesuatu dari melarikan diri dari cinta sejati. Tidak mungkin. Cinta sejati tidak akan mengejar ke mana pun kita pergi. Cinta sejati ada di dalam diri kita. Cinta itu menjadi bagian dari hidup yang harus diakui. Memang sudah seharusnya begitu.

Hari-hari berlalu, kini dia sudah semakin jarang berlari. Kalaupun berlari, dia tak pernah menyimpang terlalu jauh dari rumah, karena di hatinya yang paling dalam, dia tahu aku juga mencintainya. Belum pernah aku merasakan yang seperti ini sebelumnya. Ya ampun, aku tak pernah bisa begini. Cinta bisa jadi apa saja, tetapi ujung-ujungnya, cinta menjadi sebatas apa yang kita perbolehkan - bukan menjadi yang kita ciptakan. 

Tidak ada tempat untuk berpaling lagi ketika kau menemukan tujuanmu, dan itulah hal yang menyenangkan. Karena, asal tahu saja, dia sudah lelah berlari.

Jay Rylant

("aku" <-> "dia") 

50 ㅡ ♕ The Selfie Life of Chicken Soup

Lebih baik pernah mencintai lalu patah hati ketimbang 

tak pernah mencintai sama sekali

- Alfred Lord Tennyson.

Aku bukan orang penggugup tetapi rasanya aneh saja bagiku untuk merasa gugup pada pertemuanku dengan Kim Hanbin untuk kesekian kalinya. Akhirnya aku sadar tentang kenyataan yang sudah menghantuiku sejak pertama kali bertemu dengannya, suatu kenyataan yang sudah lama kucoba abaikan, suatu kenyataan yang harus kuakui, kenyataan yang berhak didengar olehnya, kenyataan yang perlu dipercayainya - Kim Hanbin adalah model standar yang kugunakan untuk menilai laki-laki lain.

Sedikit pun aku tidak tahu pertemuan kali ini merupakan awal perjalanan yang mencerahkan yang akhirnya akan memberiku pengetahuan bahwa mengikuti kata hati terbukti tidak cukup bila kita membiarkan rasa takut menimbulkan keraguan atau hambatan paling kecil sekalipun. 

Perjalanan berikutnya merupakan suatu pengalaman jatuh bangun. Pada masa-masa senang kami bisa ngobrol berjam-jam, tertawa-tawa, dan menikmati kebersamaan seakan-akan suka-duka dan segala sesuatunya di dunia benar-benar tak berarti. Aku merasa diriku benar-benar nyaman dengan upaya hasil  rekaanku sendiri - yaitu membuat dirinya senyaman, seaman dan sebahagia mungkin. Aku merasa sepasang matanya mengungkapkan bahwa dia membalas semua perasaanku.

Semua laki-laki yang pernah kukencani di masa lalu memiliki kualitas yang kudambakan (kecerdasan, rasa humor, ketampanan lahir/batin, dan kasih sayang), namun semua karakteristik itu belum pernah menyentuh hatiku. Aku butuh lebih dari semua itu. Aku butuh seorang laki-laki yang dengan kemampuannya yang unik menguatkan dan memberiku inspirasi secara mendalam, seorang laki-laki yang memaksaku menjadi orang yang lebih baik hanya karena dia tahu aku berhak atas yang benar-benar terbaik yang dapat kutampilkan, seorang laki-laki yang kesehatannya kupandang setara atau bahkan lebih penting lagi daripada kesehatanku sendiri. Semua itu kuyakini ada dalam diri Kim Hanbin meskipun sebenarnya tidak. Seorang laki-laki yang menyentuh hatiku.

Akhirnya kami pun pelan-pelan merenggang, membuatku bertanya-tanya mengapa lingkaran setan hangat-dingin ini terus berlanjut selama berbulan-bulan. Apakah itu karena kami berdua sama-sama takut untuk saling percaya dengan tanggung jawab yang menyertai yang dipersyaratkan oleh suatu hubungan yang erat? Mungkin seluruh instingku itu keliru dan dia sebenarnya belum pernah merasakan seperti yang kurasakan terhadapnya. Apapun alasan yang sebenarnya, perasaanku terhadapnya tidak berbuah sedikit pun. Anehnya, aku tak peduli apa alasan sebenarnya; yang penting bagiku adalah dia bahagia dan aman. Meski aku begitu mendambakan untuk jadi orang yang membuatnya menyunggingkan senyum yang tak tertandingi itu, aku akan puas bila tahu dia tersenyum dan diperlakukan seperti emas (sebagaimana layaknya dia) oleh orang lain.

Meski berbagai hal kemudian menjadi sama sekali berbeda dari yang kuperkirakan, aku mendapatkan pelajaran berharga dari pengalaman-pengalamanku bersama Kim Hanbin. Sejujurnya saja, meski aku sudah menyebut Kim Hanbin sebagai "seseorang yang terlepas", aku yakin rasa takut dan bimbang yang ada dalam diriku yang akhirnya memisahkan kami. Itulah yang membuat Han Yeoreum, "Yang Tak Pernah Lekang" ini menjadi lebih berarti ketimbang apapun. 

Kendati aku senang bila bisa kembali ke masa lalu dan bisa mengubah apa yang telah terjadi di antara kami, Aku tak memendam penyesalan. Aku mengikuti kata hati, dan meski dia tidak benar-benar membalas perasaanku, bagaimanapun dia berhak mendapatkan kebaikanku. Aku sadar bahwa bila orang seistimewa Kim Hanbin datang ke dalam hidupmu, demi dirinya kau juga akan mengikuti hatimu dan mempertaruhkan segalanya sebagai perempuan. Kalau tidak, kau akan membiarkan rasa takut membatasi masa depanmu, membuatmu hanya menggengam kenangan tentang "seseorang yang terlepas" atau lebih buruk lagi, kenangan-kenangan "Yang Tak Pernah Lekang" yaitu kenangan tentang seseorang yang tidak ingin kau ingat tapi tidak bisa kau lupakan karena kau begitu tulus memperjuangkannya. 

Jeffrey Nathan Schirripa

female ver. story
 

49 ㅡ ♕ music, i'm in love.

And I need you most. I'm fragile as our bones, and all alone. Imperfect as I am, In your sweet embrace, How I need you most.

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me. There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me. The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall. You say it best when you say nothing at all.

Their path of life tell us story,

Sharing some tune of love, 

Shaking heart and keep going.

48 ㅡ ♕ good night.

No chicken soup related post today cause tired of doing history assignment ;___; check it out tomorrow. Yes phuleash hheh! 

너무 고마워. 난 널 하루하루 보니까 또 또 좋은데 심장이 좋아 ㅋㅋㅋ 난 널 많이 많이 좋아해. 널 나 안보이는데....괜찮아 난 널 혼자서 좋아하니까.

"넌 괜찮아? 왜 어제 학교를 안나왔어?"

"학교를 못가서 난 아프니까...."

"많이 아파? 이제 괜찮아? 괜찮지? 어?"

"어..이제 괜찮아. 고마워....."

고마워. 잘자 내 좋아하는 브라운 ㅋㅋ

47 ㅡ ♕ Believe in Chicken Soup

Kita dapat mengenali seseorang lebih jauh dengan satu jam bermain dengannya ketimbang setahun bercakap-cakap degannya.

- Plato

Dan ketika dia membicarakan pemahaman, aku menengadah dan melihat pelangi mengilas dengan cahaya warna-warni di atasku.

- Black Elk

Orang yang bahagia bukanlah yang berada dalam kondisi-kondisi tertentu, melainkan orang yang memiliki sikap tertentu.

- Hugh Downs

Kita mencintai bukan dengan menemukan orang yang sempurna, tetapi melihat ketidaksempurnaan dengan sempurna.

- Sam Keen

Orang memaafkan sejauh dia mencintai.

- La Rochefoucauld

Mengapa tidak berani menentang arus? Bukankah ada buah di sana?

- Frank Scully

"Aku tidak sedang ingin bertemu seseorang. Aku sudah punya kehidupan yang menyenangkan. Seorang laki-laki hanya akan membuat hidupku jadi kacau. Lagi pula, kalaulah Tuhan menghendaki aku menikah, tidakkah menurutmu Dia lah yang akan membawakanku seseorang yang tepat pada waktunya?" 

Temanku terlihat ragu-ragu ketika memandangku lewat asap yang menguap dari cangkir cappucino kami. "Apakah tak pernah terpikir olehmu bahwa Tuhan menghendaki kaulah yang mencari? Memang, kau sudah punya karier mengajar, rumah sendiri, seorang anjing Baegle, dan kemandirianmu. Mungkin hubungan yang indah akan memperkaya hidupmu yang sudah nyaman."

Dengan mengakar, pernyataan itu sudah menyebar seperti tanaman rambat dan, dalam cerita Alkitab tentang Ibrahim, yang mengutus pembantunya mencarikan istri untuk anak lelakinya, Ishak. Ibrahim tidak hanya duduk-duduk saja dan menggoyang-goyangkan ibu jari, menantikan perempuan muda mengetuk pintu kemahnya. Rencananya melibatkan tindakan yang direncanakan.

Aku menetapkan untuk memulai kencan online. Puluhan laki-laki telah aku temui demi menemukan seseorang yang tepat untukku. Aku berniat untuk menghentikan kencan online ku apabila dalam seminggu ini memang tidak ada yang cocok denganku. Pada tanggal 30 Juli 2007, aku berjumpa dengannya ditemani oleh kopi latte. Kami sama sekali tak kesulitan menandai masing-masing, karena sama-sama memajang foto kami yang terakhir. Kami ngobrol berjam-jam dan sepakat untuk bertemu lagi, lagi dan lagi, dan lagi, dan lagi.  Perlahan-lahan kami saling mengenal sebagai teman. Aku terkesan oleh budi baiknya, rasa hormatnya padaku, dan kenyataan bahwa Ia menyukai anjing-anjingku. Kami memiliki banyak sekali kesamaan. Namun, dengan senang hati menerima perbedaan di antara kami masing-masing. 

Pada hari Natal 2008, dia melamarku, dan kami menikah pada tanggal 4 April 2009.

Semua ini terjadi karena kami memilih untuk keluar dari segala sesuatu yang sudah biasa dan jadi tradisi, untuk mempercayai Tuhan, dan mengambil resiko untuk melakukan kencan online, bergiga byte dari telepon Princess-ku yang berwarna pink.

Laurel Hausman

Paskah menyiratkan keindahan, keindahan hidup baru yang langka. 

- S.D. Gordon

Orang-orang selalu mengatakan, "Kau akan langsung tahu begitu saja, dan itu akan terjadi ketika kau sedang sama sekali tidak mengharapkannya." tetapi aku tak percaya pada mereka.

Kini, setelah ratusan kencan, "mereka" memang benar. Kau akan tahu begitu saja, dan itu terjadi pada saat kau paling tidak mengharapkannya. Setelah berpacaran lama dengan teman kuliahku di Midwest, aku tak pernah berpikir akan menemukan cinta seperti itu lagi. Namun, setelah bertemu David, aku sadar bahwa aku bisa jatuh cinta lagi. Beberapa bulan setelah kami mulai berpacaran, kusampaikan kepada David.

"Terima kasih ya, sudah ada di acara makan malam di luar acara Paskah itu."  

"Terima kasih juga sudah menjadi dirimu." Jawabnya.

Natalia K. Lusinski

46 ㅡ ♕ Feel The Chicken Soup

Kita mengetahui sedang jatuh cinta jika kita tak bisa tidur karena kenyataan jauh lebih indah daripada mimpi-mimpi kita.

- Dr. Seuss

Tidak ada di dunia ini yang semanis cinta. Dan persis di sebelah yang termanis itu adalah benci.

- Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Cinta bukanlah sesuatu yang kautemukan. Cinta yang datang menemukanmu.

- Loretta Young

Ambillah kesempatan! Seluruh hidup ini memuat kesempatan. Orang yang berjalan paling jauh biasanya adalah orang yang berani dan mau berusaha.

- Dale Carnegie

Tak ada yang perlu ditakuti dalam hidup ini. Semua hanya perlu dipahami.

- Marie Curie

Setiap orang punya nasib masing-masing; yang harus dilakukan hanyalah mengikutinya, menerimanya, ke mana pun nasib membawanya.

- Henry Miller

Tak ada yang namanya kebetulan; dan apa yang kelihatan sebagai suatu kebetulan muncul dari suatu sumber takdir yang lebih dalam.

- Johann Friedrich Von Schiller

Ada dua macam pijar, yang pertama langsung menyala dengan sekali jentik, tetapi lekas padam. Yang lainnya adalah yang memerlukan waktu menyala, tetapi begitu menyala...apinya abadi, jangan lupa itu.

- Timothy Oliveira

Kita berdua sudah ditulis di bintang-bintang, kekasihku, yang memisahkan kita hanyalah waktu, waktu untuk membaca peta di dalam hati kita, untuk menemukan jalan kembali untuk bersatu lagi.

- Unknown

Jangan sekali pun pernah menyerah.

- Winston Churchill 

Hellooooo! I'm reading a book hehe! It's "Chicken Soup for The Soul: True Love". I haven't done reading this all and i'll take my time to enjoy. Cerita-cerita inspiratif yang menarik buat dibaca. I'm Chicken Soup for The Soul fan so yeah love it soooo muchos.

Byeyeom!

Good Luck! 

45 ㅡ ♕ it blooms....or not.

"Don't know you, i want you.
Can't read your mind, i don't mind.
Flower still blooming in summer, i still loving you forever."

- crvn.

44 ㅡ ♕ forget me not.

You're here and you're there.
You're not here and you're not care.

43 ㅡ ♕ blank page, broken pieces.

Turning off the lamp.
Laying on bed.
Listening to some old songs.
Tears won't stop.
Pretending to be okay.
Letting them down through cheeks.
Closing eyes.
Thinking about how it hurts.
Feeling it like a fresh wound.
Start screaming soft.
Start crying heart.

이렇게 아프네.....이 짝 사랑.
결국은 짝 사랑이었다. 

You'll never ever gonna read this. But yes this is for you. I'm writing this while thinking about you. You can't never imagine how you can change my life upside down. You can't never imagine how you can make my heart going crazy. You can't never imagine how you mean so much to me. You can't never imagine how i cherish every moment with you. You can't never imagine how i always want to impress you. You can't never imagine how much i want you to look at me. You can't never imagine how i want to always be beside you. You can't never imagine how much i want you to think about me. You can't never imagine how much i like you. You mean a lot to me and you can't never imagine how much it is. I don't wanna lie again now. I'm sick of saying no i don't expect but yes i expect some things. Yes i dream some things with you. Yes i sometimes think that you're always here beside me. I desprately want you. I want you so bad. I like you and always do....ever since the first time i saw you. I like you. See how much i like you. Nobody will love you like i do.....maybe i could say. But i know from the way you talk to me, the way you see nothing in me, the way you ignore me, i know this is not right. I know you want me to stop and don't want me to go too far. I know, i know it well. But please i hate myself for not giving up yet. I hate myself for still holding on when it's the right time for me to give up. I hate how i still don't wanna let go even if i have to. I hate how i can't let you go. I hate how i still wanna try my best. I still want to show you how much i like you. This is not the right time for me to give up right? No. I still want to let you know how much i like you. I still want to let you know how much i want you. Even if it looks pathetic but at least i know i've tried my best before giving up. I'd rather let go when i've tried my best then give up with never try anything. Well....i'm happy just by seeing your smile so smile more and i'll be happy tomorrow. The most important thing for me is your happiness. Show me that you're the happiest person so i can let you go and be happy even moreeee without me around. It's okay, don't feel bad about me. Life is full of choices to make and i choose to like you even if i don't have you as my one. I never choose to like you at first, but love chooses me. Love chooses me to look at you. Now it's me, the one who chooses you, still chooses you even if i don't have you around. This girl who chooses to see your smile everyday even if it's not for her. It's okay, that's love.

Good night! xoxo

Good luck! 

42 ㅡ ♕ xoxo

HAPPY NEW YEARRRRRR!!! BOOOOOOM xx yup 2:05 here and i'm still writing this. Sleepy yes. I spent my December 31st with my best, Bom. It was unexpected that she could come to my house and spent some time here before spending another time later with our friends on 12AM for celebrating new year. My parents indeed liked her as my friend lol be happy cause that means you're accepted as my bae.

Celebrating new year with friends tonight gave me a new and fresh feelings. I felt happy seriously happy. Idk it's just i love how people gather around together, laughing together and be happy together. I feel loved. PS; this is the first time i spend my new year with my friends hm i hope this isn't the last time and can continue for years later. Amen. Hehehe. 

Sometimes i feel envy cause people who hurts me get to be more happy now. They hurt people but they say for themselves that they're hurt as well. Well.....they're the one who be happy first than me. Sometimes just sometimes it scares me how people can get what they want once they hurt me. I mean it's like a nice thing to leave me behind and then be happy. That's crazy how life offers you so many things to let you down and hate other people. But here i am, never hate them for doing that. Let them be happy now and i'm sincere always, i never lie. It doesn't matter who's the one who feel the happiness first but the one who smiles till the end that matters. I wish it's me and it should be me!!! cause i know i deserved to be happy.....right? Gulps. Yeah! I am:)

Joohee sheepishly approached him who was standing alone by the river when she arrived. "Hi." Well and then she got his answer. She smiled like a kid hm hopefully without anyone knowing. She didn't talk much with him in that event of them but she was happy cause she got to meet him. Maybe he even never imagined how he could make someone's heart goin crazy but he did. "pssst...don't tell anyone about this." She told her heart and then laughed all alone. She drunk a little cause she was too happy. She couldn't get to drink more, no more beer there. Sighs. "Happy blah blah!" She lifted her hand up high to have a high 5 with him lol in the end they always played around. He pretended to comb his hair like a cool guy and she pretended to rub her eyes. But....they finally did the high 5 after a long time. "Happy blah blah too!" Super. Super happy indeed. She felt like it was the best nuyir event she had ever been in her life. It maybe didn't mean a thing for him....but for her it was everything. She couldn't imagine anything else. She could just stand up and tell him that she liked him. Likeyew.

Goodnight! xoxo