362 ㅡ ♕ 행복할 자격이 있어.

솔직히 말해줄래? 제발...

너라면 다 믿는 거 알잖아.

네 말대로 언젠가 나도.

나 같은 누군가에게 사랑받게 될까?

361 ㅡ ♕ 오늘도 눈 감아본다.

잠들지 못한 밤

모두가 잠든 밤

멀어진 사람과

지나간 시간

잊었던 기억들

잊혀진 얼굴들

떠올리다...

오늘도 눈 감아본다

349 ㅡ ♕ 어떤 이유로 만나?

어떤 이유로 만나? 나와 사랑을 하고. 어떤 이유로 내게 와?
함께 있어준 당신 부디 행복한 날도 살다 지치는 날도
모두 그대의 곁에 내가 있어줄 수 있길.

348 ㅡ ♕ 이게 사랑인가 봐?

이게 사랑인가 봐?

꿈만 같은 일인데.

347 ㅡ ♕ 그대와 내가 걷는 이 길은 참 쉽지 않아.

그대와 내가 걷는 이 길은 참 쉽지 않아서
오늘도 그댈 잡지 못하고 이렇게 그대를 보내요.

346 ㅡ ♕ I need you now, but I don't know you yet.

How can you miss someone you've never met?

Because I need you now, but I don't know you yet.

Can you find me soon because I'm in my head?

Yeah, I need you now, but I don't know you yet.

Because lately it's been hard.

But I only got half a heart to give to you, and I hope it's enough.

How can you miss someone you've never seen?

Oh, tell me, are your eyes brown, blue, or green?

And do you like it with sugar and cream?

Or do you take it straight, just like me?

I need you now, but I don't know you yet.

345 ㅡ ♕ Someday, I know someone’s gonna be there.

Someday, you're gonna realize. One day, you'll see this through my eyes. By then, I won't even be there. I'll be happy somewhere, even if I can't.

I know you don't really see my worth. You think you're the last guy on earth. Well, I've got news for you. I know that I'm not that strong. But, it won't take long.

Because, someday someone's gonna love me the way I wanted you to need me. Someday someone's gonna take your place. One day, I'll forget about you. You'll see I won't even miss you.

Someday, someday.

Right now, I know you can't tell, I'm down and I'm not doing well. But, one day these tears, they will all run dry. I won't have to cry sweet goodbye. 

Someday, I know someone's gonna be there. 

305 ㅡ ♕ Nothing heals the past like time, and they can't steal the love you're born to find.

To: Han Jinhee

I look up from the ground to see your sad and teary eyes. You look away from me, and I see there's something you're trying to hide. And I reach for your hand, but it's cold. You pull away again, and I wonder what's on your mind. And then you say to me you made a dumb mistake. You start to tremble, and your voice begins to break. You say the cigarettes on the counter weren't your friends. They were my mates, and I feel the color draining from my face. And my friend said, "I know you love her, but it's over, mate. It doesn't matter, put the phone away. It's never easy to walk away, let her go. It'll be alright."

So I still look back at all the messages you'd sent. And I know it wasn't right, but it was fucking with my head. And everything deleted like the past, it was gone. And when I touched your face, I could tell you're moving on. But it's not the fact that you kissed him yesterday. It's the feeling of betrayal, that I just can't seem to shake. And everything I know tells me that I should walk away. But I just want to stay. And my friend said, "I know you love her, but it's over, mate. It doesn't matter, put the phone away. It's never easy to walk away, let her go. It'll be okay. It's gonna hurt for a bit of time. So bottoms up, let's forget tonight. You'll find another and you'll be just fine. Let her go."

But nothing heals the past like time. And they can't steal the love you're born to find. It'll be alright.

From: me

304 ㅡ ♕ I'm a shining solo.

To: me 

Innocent and delicate. I'm tired of pretending. I'm done.

What are you up to? Where are you? Did you eat? Good night.

Baby, darling, honey, I miss you. It's all useless.

You got me like. This is not a touching love story. No romance, no sincerity. I'm sorry, but I'm not sorry. From today on I'm a shining solo. 

Used to be your girl. Now I'm used to being the GOAT. You're sitting on your feelings. I'm sitting on my throne. I ain't got no time for the troubles in your eyes. This time I'm only looking at me, myself, and I. I'm going solo. I'ma do it on my own now. Now that you're alone, got you looking for a clone now. So low. That's how I'm getting down. Destined for this and the crown. Sing it loud like, this is not a touching love story. No romance, no sincerity. I'm sorry, but I'm not sorry. From today on I'm a shining solo. 

I'm a shining solo. I'm going solo.

After the relationship, romance, emotion, there's breakup, tears, regret, longing. I like being alone, because I should be true to myself. Like the flowing wind. Like the stars above the clouds. I want to go far away, I want to shine brightly. 

Now I'm going solo. I'm a shining solo. I'm going solo. 

From: Han Jinhee

300 ㅡ ♕ Carilah dia yang mampu membangkitkan versi terbaik dari dirimu yang selama ini terlelap.

Teruntuk, diriku; yang seringkali merindu.

Ini pesanku untukmu, diriku.

Kamu harus tahu bahwa dirimu pantas dicintai.

Kamu lebih dari apa yang kamu bayangkan.

Kamu harus bahagia walau dengan air mata.

Kamu kuat.

Kamu yang terbaik.

Kamu pernah membayangkan indahnya dicintai sepenuh hati oleh seseorang, bukan? Ah, bukannya pernah lagi, melainkan aku tahu, kamu terlampau sering membayangkan hal itu hingga ketika tangan tak sampai, maka kamu terjatuh begitu dalam. Oleh karena itu, di sini aku akan menyadarkanmu bahwa nyatanya hidup tak akan sesuai dengan harapanmu, sebab Tuhan tidak akan memberikan segalanya yang kamu inginkan, tetapi Tuhan akan memberikan segalanya yang kamu butuhkan. Kamu harus tahu itu, aku.

Lantas, untuk apa kamu mendambakan kehadiran sosok yang hanya akan menjadi pelengkap hidupmu saja di saat kamu bisa hebat dan kuat tanpa siapa pun di sampingmu? Carilah dia yang mampu membangkitkan versi terbaik dari dirimu yang selama ini terlelap.

Percayalah padaku, kamu bisa bahagia.

Girl, perfectly her, broken and hurt. Soft and asleep in the morning gray. Shake off the night and don't hide your face. The sun lights the world with a single flame. I want you to see this. Today and all of your days, I'll wear your pain, heal what I can in your troubled mind. Sometimes our bodies will hurt for some time, and the beauty in that can be hard to find. I want you to find it. So run, wake up and run, my little one. I wanna tear down these walls that can't hold you inside, rip out the cords and uncover your eyes. We'll make our escape in the dark of night. I need you to see this. Girl, you'll see the world, and you'll come to learn that falling in love is a strange work of art. All of your battles will shape who you are, and know that your scars are my favorite part. I want you to know this.

Good bye, to you.
From someone, me.

298 ㅡ ♕ They don't realize that I'm thinking of you.

I know where to lay. 

I know what to say.

It's all the same.

I know how to play. 

I know this game. 

It's all the same. 

Now, if I keep my eyes closed, he looks just like you. 

But, he'll never stay, they never do. 

Now, if I keep my eyes closed, he feels just like you. 

But, you've been replaced. I'm face to face with someone new.

Would have gave it all for you, cared for you. So tell me where I went wrong.

Would have gave it all for you, cared for you. My lover, my liar.

Would have trade it all for you, there for you. So tell me how to move on.

Would have trade it all for you, cared for you. My lover, my liar.

They don't realize that I'm thinking of you. 

It's nothing new.

294 ㅡ ♕ Tonight, I’ll send the glow of a firefly to somewhere near your window.

이 밤 그날의 반딧불을 당신의 창 가까이 보낼게요. 사랑한다는 말이에요. 나 우리의 첫 입맞춤을 떠올려. 그럼 언제든 눈을 감고 가장 먼 곳으로 가요. 난 파도가 머물던 모래 위에 적힌 글씨처럼. 그대가 멀리 사라져 버릴 것 같아 늘 그리워... 그리워... 여기 내 마음속에 모든 말을 다 꺼내어 줄 순 없지만... 사랑한다는 말이에요. 어떻게 나에게 그대란 행운이 온 걸까? 지금 우리 함께 있다면 얼마나 좋을까요? 나의 일기장 안에 모든 말을 다 꺼내어 줄 순 없지만... 사랑한다는 말. 이 밤 그날의 반딧불을 당신의 창 가까이 띄울게요. 좋은 꿈 이길 바라요...

Tonight, I’ll send the glow of a firefly to somewhere near your window. It’s that I love you. I remember our first kiss. I close my eyes whenever I can and go to the farthest place. Just like letters on the sand where waves were, I feel you’ll disappear to a far off place. I always miss you... miss you... All the words in my heart, I can’t show them all to you. But, it’s that I love you. How can I be so lucky to have met you, who is a blessing? If we’re together now, how great it’d be? In my diary, all the words, I can’t show them all to you. It’s that I love you. Tonight, I’ll send the glow of a firefly to somewhere near your window. I hope it’s a good dream...

293 ㅡ ♕ Just ignore me and pass by... before I want you more.

한번도 이런 적 없죠... 내 맘이 맘처럼 안돼요. 매일 걷던 이 거리마저도 왜 이리 꿈처럼 아름다운지? 천천히 한 걸음씩 내 심장은 그런데 너무 빨라요. 이러다 먼저 울어버릴까 봐 두려워... 혹시 알게 되어도 말하지마요... 나를 안아주지마요 이 밤이 지나가면 모든게 없어질 것만 같아요. 자꾸 그대만 보여요. 나 혼자만 가질 사랑인데 모르는 척 지나가줘요... 더 원하기 전에. 그대가 미소 질때마다 점점 더 약해지는 내 맘 아는지? 지금 뒤돌아보지말아요. 울고 있는 얼굴로 나 기억되긴 싫어. 잘가란 말 차마 하지 못해 보내고 있어. 아니... 난 보낸 적 없어요. 이미 다 알잖아요. 내가 달려갈게요... 내일이 절대 오지 않아도 견딜 수 있어요... 작은 추억만 하나라도 상관없어. 제발 나를 안아줘요. 따뜻하게 꼭 안아줘요... 원하기 전에.

I’ve never been like this before... My heart won’t listen to me. Even this street I walk on every day, why does it look so beautiful, like a dream? Slowly, step by step, I tell my heart, but it’s going too fast. At this rate, I might just cry, I’m afraid. Even if you find out, don’t tell me you know... Don’t hug me, after this night passes. It feels like everything will disappear. I keep seeing you, though it’s just me who has this love. Just ignore me and pass by... before I want you more. Every time you smile, do you know my heart gets weaker? Don’t look back right now. I don’t want you to remember my crying face. Don’t say good bye, I’m forcing myself to let you go. No... I’ve never let you go, you know this. I’ll go get you... even if tomorrow never comes, I can endure... I don’t care if it’s just a small memory. Please hold me. Warmly hold me... before I want you even more.

292 ㅡ ♕ Again today, I wash out my memories.

내 마음을 적시는 듯이 떨어지는 빗소리마저 건조해. 네가 했던 말이 거짓말이었더라도 여전히 난 널 원해. 이런 내 마음을 모를 걸 넌 기억을 씻어 내... 나는 오늘도 조금 흐림 그리고 비. 우리 둘이 처음 만난 날 같이 약간은 변덕스럽지만 전혀 거슬릴 것 없었던 소나기. 삐끗거리며 맞추어 가던 이 추억의 조각은 미완성. 넌 떠났고 난 홀로 남아. 고집부리다가 그걸 더 망쳐놨어. 이젠 씻어내야 되는 거지. 살짝 귀찮더라도 건조한 마음은 수분 없어. 욕조에 담가 놓아도 뜨거울 정도로 내 마음을 데우던 넌 없는 거잖아. 한기 가득한 내 마음을 채우던 물도 끈 거잖아. 넌 아마 wash away. 너의 입술도 너의 이름도 끝내 지우고 씻을게. I‘m gonna wash away. 오늘 날씬 맑음 그리고 구름은 가끔 끼어. 사소한 기후 변화에도 장마 내리는 것처럼 다투던 그때에 비하면 많이 나아진 듯 보이지만 슬픔을 담은 하늘빛이 노래져. 심장 박동 같던 노래도 이젠 새삼 나를 놀래켜. 돌아가고 싶진 않아 never. 날 내버려 두길 바랬던 이 전쟁마저 이젠 끝내고 싶어 forever. 넌 soap opera. 뗄 수 없을 만큼 익숙했기에 쉽지 않았어. 미지근한 일상으로 널 씻어내는 게. 아무 생각 없이 틀어놓은 따뜻한 물이 가득 찼네 욕조에 이렇게 덤벙거리기도 가끔 깜빡하는 것도 여전해. 이런 내 마음을 모를 걸 넌 기억을 씻어 내... I‘m gonna wash away.

As if my heart is being drenched. Even the falling raindrops are dry. Even if what you told me was a lie. I still want you. You probably don’t know I feel this way. Again today, I wash out my memories. It’s a little gray and it’s raining. Just like the day we first met. It was a little unpredictable, but the rain showers were not bothersome. This statue of memories that we crookedly pieced together is unfinished. You left me and I’m all alone. I was being stubborn, which ended up ruining it more. Now I need to wash it out. Even if I’m a little lazy. There is no fountain in this dried up heart. Even if it is placed in a bathtub. You used to warm up my heart to the point where it got hot. But now you’re not here anymore. You turned off the water that used to fill up my heart. You’re probably… wash away. Your lips, your name. I erase them in the end. I’ll wash it away. I‘m gonna wash away. Today’s weather is sunny and slightly cloudy. I notice the even slightest weather changes. Compared to the days when we fought like a storm. It seems a lot better, but the sky’s light turns yellow with sadness. The songs that were like my heartbeats, now they surprised me. I don’t want to go back – never. I used to hope that you’d leave me alone. I just want to end this war forever. You’re like a soap opera. Because I’d gotten so used to you that I couldn’t take you off. It wasn’t easy washing you out with my lukewarm daily life. The warm water I turned on without even thinking has filled up the bathtub. Splashing water around, forgetting things, it stays the same. You probably don’t know I feel this way. Again today, I wash out my memories.