238 ㅡ ♕ Am I alone in this crowded street?

Can't you stop for a bit for me?

It's too hard to walk any longer

The wind blows and it's still

Is there no place for me in this big world?

Am I alone in this crowded street?

Is there no empty seat for me?

So far away...

237 ㅡ ♕ Tonight is another sleepless night.

I get more and more scared

I'm running but my feet and heart forget why

Dreams just become baggage now

My only hope is to just leave it behind and run

Rushing myself to take just one more step

But when I looked up, I'm right in front of a cliff

I look back and all these expectations are lined up behind me

It pretends to support me but it's pushing my back

I wanted to place a comma in my heart sometimes

But now it's mixed up with all these numbers

The calculating world holds out its hand

I don't want to hold it but I'm even more scared of being empty-handed

I can hold it but would time really be the only thing that goes away?

As I look at the cloudy sky

I thought, I used to have dreams at one point

Tonight is another sleepless night

236 ㅡ ♕ I'm a supporting cast in my own story.

How does it feel to be the center of everyone's attention?

How does it feel to be able to do everything you want and everyone's supporting?

You are the main character while I'm just a supporting cast in my own story.

They never wonder about what I'm doing, they only worry about what you are thinking.

They asked only because manners, so that they looked like they're worrying.

How does it feel to be able to voice out your thoughts and everyone's listening?

How does it feel to live a life everyone thinking is great?

Living is hard, I'm trying to hold on to myself so I don't break into pieces.

Voicing everything is hard because I have nothing to brag about.

Sometimes, I want to stop being me who doesn't get a chance to live a proper life.

Somewhere, I want to get lost and stop worrying about life.

Someday, I won't look back and see myself crying.

235 ㅡ ♕ I'm an amateur defender.

Come to think of it, I've never been a striker in my life. I've always defended myself, and stepped back at the right timing. I have neither the courage to take the ball nor the ability to avoid it. I'm an amateur defender. — 윤지호

234 ㅡ ♕ I was a snail chasing after dreams.

In a world of competition, my friends threw themselves for a line on their resume. In between them, I was a snail chasing after dreams. — 윤지호

233 ㅡ ♕ The standards of the world is becoming like Everest

Nothing has changed

I’m alone in this playground

I got on top of the high bars

But, I’ve been on my tip toes all my life

What’s always been asked of me

Is to reach a bit higher than I’m able to

The standards of the world is becoming like Everest

The more I go towards the top, stress builds up like a mountain

I know I can never rest

No sleeping pills to put my anxieties to sleep

So I’m biting down on my tongue and staying up all night

Since I was young

I was taught to stay in line

Now I know why

Complicated relationships, it’s a paradox

Only relationships exist and there’s no room for humans

Afraid of becoming ordinary, I dreamed a dream

But now, I’m jealous of the ordinary

As I stand all alone in the rain

If you don’t grow, growing pains is just pain

232 ㅡ ♕ 세상이 참 잔인하다... 너무 힘들게 살아...

난 ... 너 오늘 봤어 ... 봤었는데 그냥 내 자리에서 있었어 ... 

왜냐하면 넌 날 잊어 버렸네 ...

난 ... 널 잊어 보릴수 없었다 아직까지 ... 

난 ... 누구랑 얘기 하고싶어 ... 얘기하고 싶었는데 아무도 없어서 말못해 ... 

아무도 듣고싶어 내 재미없는 얘기 ...

난 ... 아무것도 없어서 그래 ... 내 옆에 아무도 없어

근데 난 괜찮아 ... 익숙해 졌어

근데 난 울지도 않아 ... 아프지 않아

근데 난 솔직히 말하면 아무도 없어 ... 

거짓말 했어도 아무도 오는거야...

그래서 괜찮아 ... 괜찮아질거야 ...

그래서 좋은 일있을거야 ...

그래서 좋은 사람이 될수있어 ...

그래서 행복 할수있어 ...

난 ... 그냥 행복 해지고싶어.

231 ㅡ ♕ Home is far away

I have a long way to go

But, there are no taxis

And, it feels like it's gonna rain

The weight of today are on top of my sagging shoulders

I wanna put it down for a moment

Home is far away...

230 ㅡ ♕ 내 마음

난... 그냥 행복 해지고싶어....

229 ㅡ ♕ Aku tidak pernah....

Aku tidak pernah meminta karena sudah tahu akan diberi. Aku tidak pernah berharap karena sudah pasti akan ditunjukkan jalan. Aku tidak pernah mengingini milik orang lain karena sudah bersyukur diberikan kehidupan milikku sendiri. Aku tidak pernah berniat untuk menjatuhkan orang lain karena sudah paham betul bagaimana rasanya terjatuh. Aku tidak pernah bersikap acuh tak acuh karena sangat mengenal perasaan diacuhkan. Aku tidak pernah membenci karena sudah tahu rasanya dibenci. Aku tidak pernah lelah mencoba karena tahu aku sedang diuji. Aku tidak pernah berhenti mengasihi karena paham betul bahwa Tuhan tak akan pernah berhenti mengasihi.

Aku bertahan karena tahu aku tak memiliki tujuan.