The glance. The smile. The laugh. Everything. It wasn't even for her ever since from the start. The most scary thing that she'd been afraid of.....finally came to life. She was afraid. Really. Really really. Really afraid. It's okay to cry. She needed a shoulder. Don't ask her why but just lend her your shoulder for a min please. She just wanna let things out. She just super scared. This feeling is weird. It's killing her. She couldn't hold anymore. She was holding onto nothing. He was kind. He was always kind to everyone. Maybe it was her, the one who thought he had feelings for her. And in the end, she was the one who loved him. Not gonna ask a payback by loving her back. She did it cause she loved doing it. She loved being nice to him. It's okay, it's not even the first time being like this. This was the second time. So she had trained her heart twice. He was just her "so far far away dream". They were not close. They were apart by some things. They seemed close.......for her side. But honestly for him it was not. It was never. Close? No. Just a far far away dream. It's okay to keep loving him. Even if people judged me by saying stupid things. But come on this is the 2nd time. He would never see her as a lady. He would never gonna end up with her. She was scared yet still holding on. She knew it. She would never be with him cause she was the one who thought that he was kind only for her but no....he was kind to everyone. It's okay, as long as there's a space as a friend beside him. Rely on her. She would never leave even if everyone left him. She would always standing still right beside him without any reason. She would do that cause she loved doing it. It's okay, it's okay. Again and again. Stupid again. She knew things she didn't have to know. Thanks.
