Hoam! For today let's take it as hi. OCTOBER IS FINALLY HEREEEEEEE wohoo throws confetti everywhere. 3rd day of october good.
#octoberwish is here!
I wish i could be an extrovert *now half half*
I wish i could get through the selection of scholarship for my university.
I wish i could love hate and mad :-) sometimes
I wish i could be loved.
And last,
I wish i could be happy *not like what it seems now but exactly be 행복해 from every piece of me*
Happy all the time without worries which tryna catch me everytime i let myself be someone else.
Heol.
She cannot get mad at you. She cannot get mad at him. She cannot get mad at her. She cannot get mad at them. But she always get mad at herself....Joohee who's not capable of expressing her feelings like a dumbass.
#nowplaying: Akdong Musician - Officially Missing you
Everything may seems fine for everyone around her because the real truth is drowning deep down in her heart without anyone knowing. She doesn't know either. The truth always remain silent. It's hard indeed to be her. Pretending like she's fine all the time though she know she had been left. Pretending to be busy while all she does is just listening to some old songs and 혼자서 울고 있어. Put everyone's problem first before hers. Be there for everyone while no one be there for her when she wants someone to talk to.
Sometimes she just want to stop the tickling clock and rest a while. Stop being anyone else. Stop being strong when honestly her soul doesn't even there to smile. She wants to just smile when she wants to smile and cry hard when she's mad sad and wants a hug. She's weak but she always try to be someone else and act strong. I know her. I know her well. She's just don't want to get people's attention by being like that. She's an introvert who have ever been drown in her darkest night.....with no one to help her outta cage. Now she's trying and still always try to change everything bad in her and be someone who can fit in. Again and again, she knows every little thing counts as a good one...the change. Slowly but sure she believe she can be a better better person.
She believe she's always gonna play hide and seek with him, the one she needs to find. She's an unlucky lover but she can't explain why. She close her eyes and count to ten, so he can run and hide. Even if they never met, she will find his love. She's running and fall in love with him...but she's waiting for him too so come find her. She'd been searching day and night. Thinking about him. Thinking about them. Everyday without him is driving her crazy.....till then they're playing hide and seek.
#nowplaying: Jason Chen feat. Amy and Ellen - Hide and Seek
상처를 받았다. 나 알아...너 한테 우리 추억을 다 잊었버려고 그래서 그만해 이제. 행복하게 잘 살고 있는 것 같다 너. 난 행복해. 넌 행복해. 그냥 그렇게 살아. 좋지? 응 좋아. 괜찮아 잘 될거야 모두 다! 웃고싶다. 울고싶다.....
