303 ㅡ ♕ You were brave yesterday, you are brave today, and you’ll be braver tomorrow.

To: Han Jinhee in 2019

Hi, hello, 안녕.

This is gonna be a quick reminder for you. Even if there’s no one standing beside you right now, remember that I will always be there for you. You’ll be okay. You’ll do well. You’ll get to do what you love. You’ll be the best version of yourself, and no one could ever bring you down. If today you don’t feel like talking to anyone, then don’t force yourself. You don’t live to please others. I’ll remind you once again that you are perfect just the way you are. You are loved, and you deserve the whole world. If there are people who make you feel uncomfortable with yourself, leave them, darling. Why? Because you have to love yourself more. You are more than you think you are. You are stronger than you think you are. You’ll survive this world. 

No one could ever drag you down because you are now walking your own path. You’re now enjoying your life to the fullest. You can stand strong alone. You were brave yesterday, you are brave today, and you’ll be braver tomorrow. You don’t need anyone to stand beside you because even if you are alone, you can do everything you like and you can be happy. Being happy is a state of mind. You are happy. You have found your happiness. It’s within you. You have loved yourself even more now and that’s what makes you stronger than ever. You won’t be crying because of small things anymore. You’ll be fine with people come and go from your life. That’s a part of learning. That’s life.

This is gonna be the most important thing that I want you to remember. Please be with someone who loves you just the way you are. Be with someone who makes you happy for no reason. Be with someone who makes you feel loved. Don’t be with someone who only makes you lose your confidence. Don’t be with someone who values you only because of your looks, your stuffs, and your outfits, but be with someone who sincerely making an effort to get to know you better. Yes, effort, not just by words, but real efforts, not excuses. Be with someone who makes you feel special, not with someone who loves making others feel the same as you. Be with someone who sincerely wants to build dreams with you, not with someone who only placing you as an option. I know you. I know what kind of person you are. When you want to be with someone, you’ll go with that person no matter what happens, but it’s extremely hard to make you fall for someone since you actually don’t really believe in what they called love. Well, especially when a man already stepped on a boundary you have built, like making you lose your confidence by saying words you don’t like to hear, making you hate yourself, or just simply doing things you don’t like by being impolite, and I know when you don’t like it, you’ll leave everything behind, even if you have thought for a brief moment that you might end up with this person. No one knows what’s ahead, no one knows the future, but I’m sure you’ll end up with someone who makes you happy, not with someone who only makes you feel insecure. It’s not easy to make you fall head over heels because you’ve come to a realization that you love yourself more, so you want the person you’re dating to love you sincerely for who you are, not for what you are. You have the power. You are strong. That’s what I like about you. You are a strong character.

So, don’t mind others. This is your world. This is your life. You can be whatever you want. Live this life by being who you are. God creates you with lots of talent and you are perfect for Him, so don’t let others bring you down. You don’t need people to value your existence, but you have to love yourself even more because no one is ugly, and no one’s life is bad. You just have to change your perspective of seeing things in life. If today you see yourself as a bad luck person, then go to your room, lock the door, and talk to God. You’ll find peace and you’ll be okay.

Trust me. Believe in yourself. In 2019, you are going to achieve something and when you re-read this letter, you’ll smile, because you’ve done something really great. I’m writing this when I’m just settled down everything. I’ve prepared plans for you in 2019 and I hope you like it. I hope you’ll enjoy life by doing all my plans. You don’t need anyone to make you happy, darling, because you have the power to be happy. You are such a nice person, and I know you’ll get everything nice in the future. Just so you know, I’m leaving all the toxic things, toxic people, toxic state of minds behind to come this far. You’ll be very happy in 2019, and don’t forget to thank me later.

From: me in 2018