Hi. Today feels like a mix match feelings for me but it's kind of different from how i feel the mixed up feelings. Mixed up feelings is a kind of feelings of wanting to give up which mixed up with wanting to fight back. Dilemma attacks! But this mix match feelings is somewhat like a happy-sad-khunfused- crazy-down feelings mixed in me for one day full. And i know that this kind of feelings seriously matched me. Idk. I feel like i have to stop and stay away but tbh i can't. I seriously can't. Sometimes just sometimes i wonder he would see me as a friend as a lady as someone. I wish sometimes, just someday maybe it could happen. I wish it could be true.......but i wish him the best too. I wish he could be happy with her. I will watch them silently and smile for everything. That's okay cause i need to start training this heart which gonna turn into a heartache ever since from the start. It's just me who is so stubborn cause don't want to accept the fact...
*sighs* For the previous post about "how i loved sept 4" hmm i'll write down later when i got my happy mood back cause i just don't know what to write and how to write. I just wanted to sleep and forget the pain but remember the sweet memories. All in my dream.
She talked to him about something scary, she scared but that boy suddenly asked her whether she wanted to have a ride on a horse with him to make the scary feels gone. She agreed without any hesitation and smiled brightly like a kid who got candies from her aunties. They then joked around together even if there were their friends also at the circuit. They joked around with their friends together and laughed out loud like there was no tomorrow. After that, he took her to the restaurant and there he gone from her to the other girl who was always been in his heart for so long. She could just let out a deeeeeep deep sigh from the bottom of her heart and sat there with her friends without even showing a single smile. She knew everything they did cause she kept her eyes for them all the time but that was okay...she still happy because at least she also could spend some time with him even if it was because she just a maybe good friend of him. She still wish them the best. 2hours had passed, she wanted to go home and his body was super cold because of the weather there at the restaurant. It happened to her because she sat at the outside of the restaurant. On their way to the horse circuit back again, he asked her whether she wanted to take his jacket home or not because maybe he was a bit concerned about her. Of course YES right. She smiled brightly again and took the jacket from his hand and wore it prettily. Wow thanks.
<to be continued>
Here's a very gooooood song. This song keeps playing in my mind. It's Tori Kelly - Dear No One. It was niceeeee. I recommend you to listen to it:-) you can maybe use it as a background song when you read this post or coldplay fix you. Both can:-) HHE.
Here's quotes of the day!
Stop looking back......because sometimes it hurts.
It's time to fight for what you love and be comfortable with your life.
Live your life happily.
Live your life with love❤
Like.Like.Like.Love❤❤
See you guys later, Bye-yeom!❤
Have a good day, lovelies❤
