278 ㅡ ♕ 다시는 사랑 같은 거 하지 않을래... 못 하겠어...

영원할 것만 같았던 사랑도 이렇게 끝났어. 함께했던 지난 시간들 돌이켜보니 허무해져. 이젠 사랑을 믿지 못해 너무 두려워. 니가 뭔데 날 이렇게 힘들게 하니? 사랑했는데... 전부였는데... 이럴 수 있니? 왜 날 외롭게 했어? 난 너 뿐이었는데... 사랑이란 게 이런 거였니? 너무나 아파... 다시는 사랑 같은 거 하지 않을래... 못 하겠어... 함께했던 시간들이 너에겐 별거 아니였니? 많은걸 바란 게 아냐 사랑을 느끼고 싶었어. 너는 내가 그렇게 쉬워 보였니? 정말 내가 너보다 사랑해서 더 아픈가봐. 너와 내가 사랑했던 시간들 끝인걸 알기에 이젠 너를 보내야하는데. 사랑해도 아프고 헤어져도 아파. 내 마음이 정말 내 맘대로 되지 않아... 시간을 돌려 좋았던 때로 돌아간다면 조금은 달라질까? 의미없는 일인걸.

사랑이란 게 이런 거였니? 너무나 아파. 다시는 사랑 같은 거 하지 않을래... 못 하겠어...

The love that I thought would last forever ended like this. It became really empty, if I looked back at our times old time together. I feel so scared, now that I can't believe in love. Who are you to give me so much pain like this? I loved you... you were my all... you know that? Why did you let me feel lonely? You were the only one for me... Was this what love was like? It really hurts... I will never be in love again... I can't... Our times together is nothing for you, right? I don't want much, I just wanted to feel loved. Did I seem so easy to you? It turns out that I love you more than you do, and it really hurts. Knowing that our times together as we were in love already ended, I have to let you go. To be in love with you gives me pain, but even if we broke up, it still hurts. My heart can't go the way I want... If we turned back time to where we were so in love, would it be a little different? Although it's meaningless.

Was this what love was like? It really hurts... I will never be in love again... I can't...